Today marks two months since Mom's fall the night after Christmas. She broke her left shoulder. It was not a serious break, but it was a complete game changer on her care, her independence and the roles of all her six children. Bob and I are here in Virginia pretty much alone with her as my siblings are scattered all over the country with varying abilities and circumstances to pitch in. It has been especially difficult on every level as she has lost so much independence. For 2 weeks, she truly thought she had come to the end of her life, and had 6 separate out of body experiences that lasted for several hours. And during those weeks chose to be alone with no contact other than me and Bob ... It's been a very spiritual time of solitude for her! In the end, however, her body rallied, and the plan we'd made before Christmas to move her to my sister's in Texas, is happening this weekend. We will fly with her there on Friday and return on Sunday.
I won't try to describe all the emotions ... all I can say is that if this had happened before October, I would have GAINED 10 pounds, eaten everything in sight, my skin would be a mess, and I'd be an emotional train wreck. And sad and embarrassed that nothing fits.
As it is, I'm just tired. I can get over that :0) My slacks fit, my skin looks great, and with all the emotions of the situation, I know that they haven't been mucked up with sugar highs and lows. Those strong emotions are the real deal. How I love my Mom, but most of all my husband. What amazing people they both are. But it's time for us to be on our own.
I think the highlight of my day was my 20 minute aerobic session! I looked forward to it, and worked up to my 4 cycles with greater intensity on each one! I didn't have to stop at all until I hit the last "all-out" push for level 10 intensity. I haven't felt pushed and exhilarated like that since I did timed runnings for physical fitness tests in middle school and high school.
How good it is to have this exciting new challenge, even if the timing coincides with so many immediate family needs.
One week from today Cooper will be home from his mission in Brazil! We are SOOO excited!
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